https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/irksome/
I am irked: Could do without this, frankly…
They started in my mid-teens: Disabling headaches, with accompanying aura, which had me bed-bound and moaning with pain in a darkened room. In 2003, I was hospitalised (and had a brain scan and lumbar puncture) with the worst migraine thus far: It went on for ten days or more.
What can I tell you? Severe, or continuous, stress brings them on. The one in 2003 came about three weeks into jury service in a murder trial. As a result, I had to be removed from the jury.
Saturday morning, I woke feeling dizzy, had vertigo, muffled hearing, tinnitus and strange alterations in my vision. Panic too. In retrospect, the hours at the laptop were not a good idea – but we do not always think these things through, do we? Besides, it had been such a long time since my last migraine that I assumed, and hoped, that they were finally behind me for good.
The aura manifestations continued all over the weekend. I was not able, unfortunately, to find, let alone press, panic and worry’s off button. The situation I am in is so stressful and anxiety-inducing at present that, in a sense, I am only surprised that it has taken this long for my head to get in on pain’s act.
The headache (huh! such an anodyne word for migraine’s ghastliness) struck yesterday evening. I got into bed and lay in darkness, the way I had as a teenager. Flashes of dark light seemed to be zooming through my skull. I couldn’t get comfortable, no matter how I lay. Cotton wool filled my mind, barring coherent thought but, most horribly, allowing the demons of panic (particularly those which insisted that I was having a stroke) to gibber and snigger and tweak my fear response to their evil hearts’ content. The unremitting hammers of pain thudded up and down. I felt sick every time I moved. I wanted to cry – but knew, from ancient experience, that it would make things worse.
It is like a heavy band round the head, a constricting circle of intense pain, a crown of thorns. My eyes look bloodshot and are sore. I feel shaky and afraid this morning. The ringing in the head remains, as do wispy clouds of pain, and surges of nausea.
If I could just stop worrying, it would help. But there is no time out from my current situation. I’ve got to see it through to the end – an end I hope will be the polar opposite of bitter. But I am up against it. My positive visions are, in a manner of speaking, doing battle with much darker and more negative ones – and, unfortunately, I do not have the power to banish the latter because they do not emanate from my mind. Arrowing them back to sender has had no effect thus far, though I do take my inner bow and fire strongly and accurately.
The migraine has been a nasty jar, an unpleasant surprise. But, given my somatic history, it shouldn’t have been, should it?
Heya, it’s lovely to connect. I just wanted to say I am the same as you and I worry all the time. I also used to get upset and I realised that they only got worse. I guess we learn from them. Do you know what triggers yours? They sound pretty intense when you have them. x
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Thanks so much for comment. Stress and tension tend to be the worst offenders. The worst one I ever had happened when I was on Jury Service in a murder trial.
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There is an artificial food dye that used to stop mine very quickly – but I don’t think that is a good idea. Furthermore, there was an artificial food dye in alcohol free beers that used to start them
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How very ironic! Felled by – and then cured by – food dye!
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yep – different E number though
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E-numbers: Tricky little buggers, aren’t they?
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Oh migraines…I had them for years and years…mine were probably hormonal with a dash of stress…horrid. People that never had them, call them headaches and shrug…but migraines are so beyond headaches…as well you know. I was never able to take any pain medication because a sip of water and I would be instantly sick. So instead I endured 12 hours of pain. Averaging one per month. And missing work. Not good. Everyone has advise for a cure…I do too…Acupuncture…it really did work for me. Stay well. I do so enjoy your blog.
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I sympathise totally. They are debilitating, aren’t they? Thanks so much for kind words on my blog. xxx
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Wishing you well. xo
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Thanks, Alethea; I suspect that, once things become clear (one way or the other), I will feel better, more relaxed and at ease. xxx
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I’ve never had a migraine before, but it seems that they appear more frequently in women than men.
Responding to your last paragraph, the agony that you describe sounds like something that one can never inure themselves to, even if it happens repeatedly.
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That’s interesting, Noah; I didn’t know that they were more common in women. I am not entirely surprised, however: I suspect there is a large hormonal element involved, certainly for younger women. Not so much for crones like myself! xxx
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They are generally more common in women.
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Hormonal link very likely. I say this because quite a few women stop having migraines once they have gone through the menopause.
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and most boys only start getting them around 13
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Ah, the hormonal link is getting clearer!
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reckon temperature xchange is a factor too
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Thanks, Simon. Oddly enough, someone else has said the same. Very helpful: It is something which had never occurred to me!
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too hot, too cold, too much change
but you are blessed anyway; many cultures have seen it as a gift not a punishment
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Wow! That’s good to know! A gift: Very useful.
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lol – expecting one today too i think. Giorgio de Chirico supposedly suffered from migraine
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Perhaps something in the wiring of some people’s brains makes the gift and curse of migraine more likely; after all, we have most certainly not made great strides in understanding the mind’s true nature!
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but…
Click to access 2003_Blanke_EN_the%20metaphysical%20art%20of%20giorgio%20de%20chirico%20-%20migraine%20or%20epilepsy.pdf
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Golly! Most interesting and thought-provoking.
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extraordinary artist – i went to see the Rome exhibition 15 years ago
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Golly, Simon: Lucky you!
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long time ago 😦
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when palaeolithic shamen communicated with spirits they recorded their entopic phenomena on cave walls.zig zags, spirals etc…. only special people were selected for this.
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Wow! Wonderful! Anything with a shaman connection gets my vote.
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we can’t all be boring and locked in perfect materiality! look at aboriginal art, and the zig zags of locmariquer…
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Absolutely agree, Simon! Thank Deity of Choice for diversity and the courage to fly with the stars creatively!
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Bloody things, been getting them since I fell off a trapeze at fourteen. For me bright light is the trigger (yup I wear sunglasses outside habitually, cool ones naturally), or changes in temperature. The affliction is personally tailored (no pun intended!) to the sufferer but with me it’s three painkillers at the start, sit down and, after long practice, relax. I can shift one in about half an hour. (This may not help but I’ve got it to a fine art…) x
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The change in temperature one had never occurred to me until today (another person has also mentioned it) – and makes a lot of sense, given that the cold snap and my aura coincided almost exactly. Sorry to hear that you, too, are afflicted. Will try your painkiller and relaxation idea. Thanks. xxx
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Migraine is appalling… my sympathies, Ali. Keep your blood sugar up…but lay off the Lindt 😉 xxx
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Thanks, Sue. Will do. Fortunately, the house is Lindt-free at present. xxx
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That is a serious oversight, woman! Lindt free??? I’m shocked 😉 xxx
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I know! ‘Tis most unlike me. My only excuse – inadequate, I know! – is the fact that I have not visited Street’s Lindt shop in recent months: Once visited, all other Lindt pales into insignificance! xxx
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Ah… now I see another reason for your new chapter… Street is in walking distance 😉 xxx
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Exactemente, mon ami! It had crossed my mind that a certain shop was not a million miles away! I know not everyone would plan a move around Lindt chocolate, availability of, but for the serious chocoholic, absolutely de rigueur! xxx
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There is also some seriously good cider in that area… I plan my visit 😉 xxx
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Hooray! Can’t wait! xxx
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😀 xxx
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I suffered with migraines for years, turned out to be stress (work though I was OK Monday to Friday, the migraine would start 6pm Firday and be gone by 7am Monday) and oranges! Had the doc to the house once, gave me a jab in my backside which cured my sore throat (and the headache).
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I suspect stress has a huge part to play in migraines. Oranges: That’s a new one on me, but I can see the logic – I guess anything very tart could trigger a pain response. xxx
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I read about oranges being a trigger whilst waiting in the doctor’s surgery to find out why I’d had a migraine type headache for so long. Vitamin C boost and all that I;d been having a naval orange every day for weeks…… yeah, just before the headache started (sigh).
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Oh dear – and, ultimately, oh good! One of those sad little ironies, I think: I mean, great that the knowledge has helped with the problem; not so great that you have had to eschew a loved fruit. xxx
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No problems, I discovered the joys of MANGOES!
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Super! Well done! xxx
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